Robert Buelteman

Raymond H Carroll

Robert V. Bursik

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Migraines: My story - my solution

By Robert V. Bursik

I would also like to invite you to other pages part of this website, and other related webpages listed at the bottom of this page.

I would like to welcome you to my webpage.

I wanted to make this page for people who have migraines, and for people who do not. It is my hope that my story will be able to help people who suffer the pain and debilitation of migraines, as did I for so many years.

The story you are about to read is true. It is about the pain, and about the solution that I found.

You can believe it, or you can not believe it. That's the way it always is. Those who want to see, will, and those who don't, will not. I hope some will try my method, and will find the relief that I found for the last 35 years. The solution is simple, the believing is not so easy. But I can only believe that if it worked for me, it can work for other people too.

I suffered migraine headaches for 7 years as a teenager. I would go blind, my hands would go numb, and I would have to be in a dark room for 2 days. The pain was unbearable.

When I was 19 years old, I felt a migraine coming on. I always know when it is starting, because I can perceive a slight distortion, or blind spot, in my vision. I sat down on the floor, and closed my eyes, and looked inside my head with my mind's eye. And what I found changed my life, and ended the migraine pain for the last 35 years.

What I found was a place of fear. I recognized it as fear. I perceived it as a solid place, like a walnut. I let it dissolve, and instead of a migraine headache, I had my first aura.

It started as a flickering light in the corner of my vision. It got bigger and bigger, colors of blue, yellow and pink, in zig-zag or diamond shapes. It lasted for 20 minutes, and finally disappeared to the sides of my vision.

I never had a migraine headache after that, but I have seen my aura 1,000's of times over the last 35 years. When it starts, I just ignore it, and continue with what I am doing. This helps me to ignore the fear that still tries to come over me. I say, "Oh, good, my aura is back." I can't see through it, I just work around it.

Sometimes, I will lie down and close my eyes, and watch my aura. When I do this, it slows down, and I can see it more clearly. It is so beautiful. I now consider it part of my life, and miss it if it is gone for too long.

From these 2 experiences, I can only conclude that there is a direct relationship between the mind, and the expression of the migraine. I no longer consider it to be a disease, but a gift. I consider that there is a function of control. And I consider that because the doctors don't know what it is, my solution is just as valid as their's. Maybe more so, because mine has worked for me for 35 years.

And I have other types of auras, also, that happen in other ways. Some I can start and control, and others come of themselves.

Early in the morning, when my mind is at peace, and I am asleep, comes to me most beautiful visions. They are like a living persian rug, moving shapes and colors. I watch it like watching television. I have learned that this vision emerges out of the darkness, first as a barely discernible shades of gray, and if I watch with more intensity, the shapes come into focus, and intensify into a living panorama of light and color.

At other times, comes to me the most beautiful sparkling white light, shining in the darkness, first as a barely discernible pinpoint of light. And if I let it, without fear, it grows increasingly larger, until it fills my vision.

And at other times during the day, comes to me an aura similar to a migraine aura, shapes and colors of electric light, which I see externally. And if I let it, and take time, and watch it, it slows down, and I can enjoy the simple beauty of it for what it is.

Saint Thomas said, "Angels are being of light, each as different from the other as an elephant is to a flea." - Written in "My Way of Life", by Saint Thomas - And I ask, "How can this be?"

Buddha said, "Within each man are endless forms, as endless as the sands on the Ganges. And again, within each form are endless forms, as endless as the sands on the Ganges. This is the purvue of the human experience." Written in "The Sutura of Innumerable Meanings" - And I ask, "How can this be?"

The Koran states, "There are 1,000 veils from darkness into light" - Written in "The Mystic Verse of Light, The Koran" - And I ask, "How can this be?"

The Dalai Lama told me, in 1986 in Washington, D.C., "It's very simple. Calm your mind, and take a white surface, and focus your attention, and watch the emanations of the mind." - And again I ask, "How can this be?" And I tried it, and found it to be true.

I have found that migraines (my aura) comes at all times. It comes when I am happy & when I am sad. It comes when I am stressed, and when I am at peace. It comes at work, when I am driving, when I am standing, sitting, or lying down. It comes when I eat well, or not eating well. It comes when I eat meat, or am a vegetarian, when I take vitamins or don't take vitamins. It comes in the light, or in the dark. It even comes when I am asleep. I can only conclude that there is no specific "trigger". The cause must be elsewhere.

And so, I can only conclude that the doctors are only treating the results of the migraine. They have not found the cause. And the symptoms they treat are the result of migraines not allowed to develop. The light is blocked by the fear, and becomes pain in its attempt to become free. I have found that if I meditate from time to time, and let the light come out, that the spontaneous occurance of the aura stops for a while. I can only conclude that the migraine is a natural event in so many peoples lives, not to be feared, but to be enjoyed. I view it as like static electricity, and if it builds up in the mind, it needs to be released. And if we don't fear it, we can use it for our own beauty. I can only conclude that these experiences are related to the alpha wave. And that's all I can say. That has been my experience, and I can't deny it.

I can only conclude that the mind is a powerful and beautiful thing. No one can prove or measure this power. One can only experience it for oneself. And one can only infer, from the experiences of others throughout the ages, that there must be a truth in what they say. And that is the beginning, and the hardest part. The process is simple, the believing is the hard part.

I say, "Where you place your attention, multiplies. Do not dwell on the fear. By the elimination of fear, pain becomes great beauty. Therefore, focus on the beauty. This is the simple condition of the human experience." And I say again, "Those who want to see, will. And those who do not, will not." This is the way it always has been.

I am an architect, as well as a painter. I consider my work to be of the highest integrity. I would like to invite you to visit my web page of my work, where are also numerous letters of recommendation. My web page address is: HTTP://HOMETOWN.AOL.COM/RRVB3D/RVB.HTML

Hope that some will find successful relief through this web page.

I would appreciate any comments you may have. My e-mail address is:

Please also visit the next page: Essay on beauty, quotations and examples of my aura paintings: "PEOPLE ARE DESIGNED TO EXPERIENCE GREAT BEAUTY" - 1972

Other related web pages:
Migraines & artwork:
MIGRAINE-AURA.ORG
York University Studies:
WWW.YORKU.CA/FRANW/

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Robert Bursik, The Blue Mandala (from the Opal series), oil on canvas (7'-0" x 4'-0"), undated. © 2005 Robert V. Bursik (http://hometown.aol.com/rvb3d4/rvb4.html, June 17, 2005)

"I see a strong relationship between my art making and headaches/migraine - mainly, the relationship is philosophical. Furthermore, some of my migraine visualizations, without the headache, have played a part in my art."

(Email to Klaus Podoll, July 11, 2005)

Author: Klaus Podoll
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